Random Rudeness
On or off? I don’t like having to ask myself that question when seeing a fellow performer. Is the person planning to have a good day or a bad day? Does the person want to be left alone? Will the sound of my happy voice annoy you and give you reason to give me random attitude that I don’t deserve? If you haven’t guessed yet, I deal with this everyday with a different performer in the cast. It is annoying and obnoxious. I don’t think there is ever a good enough reason to throw an attitude towards someone who has not done anything to put you in a bad mood in the first place. If I was not in this business and did not have to worry about “burning bridges” and connections, I would soooooooo put these people in their place. A huge part of me misses when I was able to be like that - last time I remember I could be like that was in high school. Man, it felt good to be able to fully defend myself and smash people down. I know I may sound evil, but it felt good to value myself enough to put people down when they tried to tear me down. Actually, come to think of it, I dealt with rudeness less often. I think it was simply because people knew they would not get through stepping on me without a harsh reaction. But now, I like to think, that my silence and unending kindness, shows that I value myself even more now. My career. My passion. My heart. I stay “nice” when I am treated poorly because I value my future so much more than trying to let a person see what an asshole he is being. Waste of my time and energy. I guess you can say I am a fan of the tactic - “kill ‘em with kindness.”
