Not liking a Survivor Job
The first month of a survivor job is usually the easiest. Everyone is on their best behavior to make me feel welcome. However, after the first month, that’s when all the real personalities come out. That is when I get to learn who is really a nice person and who is not. I am willing to put up with may things in my profession as a performer, but outside of my passion, I am not nearly as flexible. I am already doing something I do not like just by being there. The only reason why survivor jobs are not ma waste of my time, … I make money. I earn an income that allows me to continue auditioning and doing what I love. So, for me, that is how I am able to make it on time to these survivor jobs everyday. In reality, I am already pushing myself just to be there. If there is any bullcrap on top of it, I am done. I consider me a past employee. I love the stage. Period. That is where my heart and soul is and that is where I will stay. I do not see any point in pretending like I love my survivor job.
Tomorrow, I will be heading for my next job. A performance job and it could not be coming at a better time. I see myself naturally becoming a worse employee at my survivor jobs and I think ;it is due to my overall exhaustion from being out of my element - the stage. I feel like I will get to really breathe again soon. I will find my health and natural well-being just by leaving my mundane means to earn a living while I continue to pursue this dream come true career.
