Humbling
I have just been humbled once again. Went to my voice therapy lesson and really learned how much I love to sing in my throat. We sang correctly and then I knew I did not want to sing incorrectly afterwards. I did not want to feel that strain after how good I felt from doing it her way. I have been “given the go” to sing songs outside of my lessons/therapy sessions. I have been nervous about doing it, but I have to jump the gun if I want to improve. It is all about jumping over the fear to get better. Otherwise, how can I get better if I am never practicing on a regular basis. I have worked on four songs with her. I will work on each song a couple times everyday. This is a promise to myself I know I will be able to keep until I start rehearsals on August 30th. If anything, I will be vocally prepared to sing in the rehearsal process. I used to worry about making friends, but now that it is the least of my worries. This career is my concern and I am making leaps and bounds as a vocalist. It’s amazing.
There was a wise person in my last cast who tried to tell me that I was singing improperly. How can it really sink in when a person is not ready for it to sink in? She was kind and honest about it, but I did not want to believe that I could be singing improperly after all my years of voice lessons. Truth was - I was not getting the lessons I needed. Now I am. I may be speaking of my voice a lot at the moment, but that is my main thought right now. It’s a good thing because it has aided in my focus and recovery. Why stop such a positive focus? Though this is a humbling experience that makes me want to beat myself up for my past, I must remind myself that I can only live in the present. Now is all I have …
I have provided my video demo reel of mine. Now that I have learned so much, I can see and hear how incorrectly I was singing in some of my recordings.
