Financially F#@%!*
Oh, yeah.
That is what happens when you leave a gig early and have no voice. I sucked up pride and called my parents for financial help. This is a huge deal because I have made a point and done such a great job at being financially stable without them. Now I feel like they think their fears have been confirmed. I see this as a sign of where things need to be fixed. First of all, my health insurance is crap because it only covers me in New York. Second, the special ENTs and voice/speech therapists I have been seeing taking specific, and very expensive health insurance. It is insane and highly expensive. And without a voice, how am I supposed to work? I am lucky I have parents to support me, but this was all not what I wanted. I want and take pride in being financially stable on my own. When this happened, it caught me off guard so much that I did not know what to do with myself. I had to go to my parents and suck it up. Now my mom is questioning my cost off living and I have hardly done anything this summer socially because I just don’t have the money. I am not miserable. Only wise. I suppose financial problems is common for a performer, but I know there is a way to make it work. I truly believe that I will find my financial success through my life in the arts. It may be a side job like writing which would be perfect, but I don’t know what is in store for me. I only know that I can’t leave the arts. This is my life, my love, my passion, my heartbeat. Though my finances are a fiasco at the moment, I don’t care. I am going to make it through this and make it work!
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