Don’t Live in The Past (scroll down - I posted two new blogs!)
I hate this saying. I know it takes a lot of energy to hate, but man, I really am not a fan of this saying. I have an amazing past. Yes, there are a few not so amazing parts of my life where I had to deal with the cards I was dealt. But here are things I will always miss:
1. Clubbing with all the other rats on Friday nights in San Francisco at Club X.
2. Being a virgin. Yes, I totally miss this. I had some great shirts about being a virgin that I can never wear anymore. It was great not knowing what I was missing. Plus, it is hard to keep self-control on dates.
3. Doing shows with Limon Carr Productions and all the other regulars.
4. Working at the Artslab at UC Irvine.
5. Going to parties at the Smelly Cat House.
6. Throwing parties at my parents house in high school when my parents weren’t home.
7. That crazy week of fun before my senior year of high school began.
8. The first kiss from Chris Weller.
9. Holding Aidan as he accepted my gift (tickets to a Madonna concert).
10. The unexpected moment Carl said he loved me.
11. The summer with Raven, Rachel, and an endless list of boys.
The list goes on. As I write down all these amazing memories, I want to pause. My past is amazing. I want my present to be just as great. In some ways it has been, but in other ways it has definitely been a bit of a struggle. It isn’t easy to live in the present when the past is just so damn good!
